Full-Blown Suffering: My Battle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my right eye. Then came quick shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense pain around a single eye that lasts for several hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, severe agony around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent episodes are managed with abortive treatment only. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Timothy Houston
Timothy Houston

A UK-based cultural analyst and writer with over a decade of experience covering societal trends and lifestyle innovations across Europe.